thinking?

Lauri very kindly named my blog as a thinking blogger blog. Ironically, it came just when I was considering how dull and dreary my posts have become. All I seem to do is whine and whinge.

If you look back at my blog prior to March 2006, I think the posts are much more interesting. They were about life in Russia...and I seem to have had more life then. Granted, there have been good posts along the way. It's just recently that I seem to be stuck.

This isn't just in the blogger-world. I'm feeling a little stuck in real-life, too. I feel caught in the life I'm living now. Waiting for the late bus that is my elephantine adoption (okay, that was a nice reference to past posts) has me standing still. I don't feel as if I have permission to do anything else until this is finished.

I've been in Russia for two years. I've had a whole year of "Oh, wow!" and another year of "Yep. Next is..." as I've gone through the seasons and celebrations. I have ceased to be enthralled by the wonder of a new culture and am beginning to be impatient with it. I've visited all the historical sites at least once. Because of my cat and financial considerations (um, adoption is expensive), I really cannot travel. I've read all my books, watched all my movies and listened to all my cd's many times. BBC Prime shows the same shows over and over and over (Have you heard Ann Marie longing for it after she saw what it actually had to offer? No.) and they're shows I saw when I was living in the UK! It just seems as if everything is repetitive. And, I'm afraid my writing is reflecting that.

Friends who have had multiple pregnancies bandy about the statistic that each pregnancy causes you to lose ten IQ points. I'm wondering if the same it true for "paper pregnancies". If so, does one lose the IQ points per adoption wait or in nine month intervals (ten points every nine months) or do you simply lose one IQ point every month?

Very scary thought. Thank you, Lauri, for awarding this before it's too late! I'll try to get back to thoughtful posts...