06 July 2007

danger, danger, will robinson

I just did what I purposely don't do. I went on the Russian database.

I know others browse there, but I also know myself. I've been on a couple of times (Remember those three sisters in Perm that Alliance mentioned? They tempted me in...). This time I was just wondering how the accreditation delay has impacted the number of available children in my age range and region.

I was hit really, really hard. Blindsided. I know that it's nearly impossible for a foreigner to identify and adopt a child from the database. It just doesn't work that way. But, this little girl...

Please would you pray for her if you're a pray-er? Her name starts with "F". There are at least two others that made me smile and my heart ache. But there's just something about "F"...

10 comments:

Debbie said...

I'll be praying for her. And as a wise adoptive mom told me, those children that jump out at you on the database, pray for them that they find the family they are supposed to and for their safety & wellbeing.
It's hard but it makes it a little eaiser to look into the eyes of the most adorable boy when I log on myself. I just pray he be adopted and if he's meant to be our son it will happen.

JennStar said...

Perhaps God has quickened your heart because He created her to be yours from the very beginning of time, or perhaps He softened your heart to her so that others would intercede for her at this time in her life! Thank you for posting. I will assuredly pray for F. :o)

Rachael said...

Praying for you and for "F".

Also, of course I went right to your name post....no "F"s. Hmmmph.

You should know better about that data base business. But, I hope it was meant to be, and if not, that she finds her family. I've been meaning to ask for your help to "translate" so I can snoop around on the data base, as my heartstrings have been tugged by 2 kids from Katya's little groupa. I know I can't adopt again anytime soon (or realistically at all), but I think about them and wonder if they're available, etc. Esp. since they're supposed to "graduate" to the boarding school this August. And, I should know better too.

kate said...

Thanks. Jenn, I think you're exactly right. There is a reason she needs prayer right now. Whether she's mine or not, she needs something. And, I'm happy to be a part of that unknown "something". Thank you for putting into words so aptly what I am feeling. I'm a little bit of a jumble right now.

chou-chou said...

oh boy.

danger, indeed.

But, can't say that i really blame you -- i would have a hard time staying out of that database too (if i knew how to get there).

i'll be praying for "F".

Rhonda said...

Definitely will be praying for "F". I've been on those databases before, too, and its really difficult. There's just so many...

votemom said...

i can feel that heart-in-your-throat feeling. please know i am feeling it with you.

on another topic, looks like our travel dates will change just a tad. am currently on hold with our travel agent. will let you know the minute i book them.

Allison said...

As much as it breaks my heart, I can't seem to stop myself from checking out the database occasionally either. I've been drawn to several little girls, and both have been adopted by families that I had been in contact with previously (on our region's Yahoo group). It made me so happy to know those girls found wonderful homes. I'll be praying for little "F". Even if she's not meant to be your daughter, it is nice to know that there are people thinking of her.

kaymommy said...

Pray for her, fervently. You never know what God's plans are, but you know that He put this little girl on your heart so just pray for her. I will pray for God's blessing in her life right now.

Lauri said...

Praying here too...